Note: This post isn't book related. The booky-goodness will be back tomorrow.
quarter-life crisis: nounA period of doubt and anxiety that some teenagers experience after or sometimes during high school. Synonyms rebellion, stupidity-syndrome
Yep, you read that right. Quarter-life crisis, not midlife. If my math is accurate (which would be a first) at the age of around eighteen a quarter of your life has gone by.
So I give to you my quarter-life crisis...
I'll be turning eighteen this Wednesday and have found myself looking back on my teenage years, but haven't come up with much. You know how everyone says that they were "young and stupid"? Well what happens if you were young and just flat out boring? What if you weren't the class clown, the teacher's pet or the art guy that has everyone questioning his sobriety? What happens if you were just there?
Unfortunately, I don't really know the answer to that. Maybe you look back on your teen years and thank the world that you got out alive. But what about the part of being "young and stupid"? What happens to that? Does it just dissolve into nothing and you become wise based off of just being there? I don't think so...
So this theory leads me to my quarter-life crisis which consists of the following:
I want to do something rebellious. Like get a tattoo or go to a full out rock concert of my favorite band. The tattoo is never going to happen. Well "as long as I live under this (being my parent's) roof!" So scratch the first one.
Going to a rock concert is happening this summer: mosh pit, favorite band and all. Well it's more of alternative rock/punk concert, but same difference to me. I know a rock concert doesn't sound that rebellious, but to a girl whose most crazy act was driving reverse in a parking lot, it is.
I guess my quarter-life crisis is more me just wanting to do something, anything, while I'm still young. All I do is read and bum around the house, which last I checked, doesn't fall under the "Young and Stupid" category. Actually I think that category is titled "Young and Bored".
So what I'm getting at is... well honestly I really don't know what I'm trying to say. Maybe I'm trying to figure out what happens to the just there kids. The kids that didn't ace tests, but didn't flunk them either. To the people that knew what they wanted but were too afraid to go after it. Or the people that want something different than what society expects out of them. What happens to those kids?