18th Birthday Extravaganza: Guest Post by Mindi Scott

I'm sure you guys already know that I completely adore Mindi Scott! So when Mindi said she was able to do a guest post for Lauren & Katie's 18th Birthday Extravaganza I totally flipped out in excitement! Today is the last day to enter, so make sure you fill out all the correct forms for a chance to win!

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Happy birthday to Katie and a belated happy birthday to Lauren!

I was going to tell you today about this weird guy who chewed tobacco and left a silk rose from the gas station on my car for my eighteenth birthday. But then I read Katie's post about her quarter-life crisis now in progress and decided to get all confessional on you instead.

So, I’ve never told anyone this before, but while I was growing up, I believed that I was going to die young. For all of my teenage years, I was certain that I wouldn’t make it into my twenties.

Maybe it was because my dad passed away two weeks before his 25th birthday. Maybe it was some kind of a defense mechanism that I created to keep from stressing out about the future. Truthfully, I’m not sure from where the idea came.

You know how sometimes you hear about people who find out they have a terminal disease? Some keep their regular routines as if they are always going to be around while they hope for a miracle cure until the very end. Others might spend their final months/weeks/days attempting to do some of the things crazy they’ve always wished to do.

Even though I believed that my time was short, I was more like the hypothetical first option, except without the hope. I plugged along with high school, homework, and friends. I had an interest in acting, accounting, and writing (what a combination, right?), but it seemed pointless to put much effort into them. My friends were planning for college and careers, while I was simply waiting to see what was going to happen.

Fast-forward to today. I’ve made it past my teen years, past my twenties, and into my early thirties. Sometimes, I look back and get frustrated, wondering why I didn’t try harder when I was in high school, why I wasn’t more ambitious, why the bizarre death sentence in my imagination caused me to shut down instead of fight back.

More often, though, when I look back at that scared teenager, I cut her a break. She didn’t do all the living that she could have and probably should have done back then. The good news is that I can do it for her now.

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Thank you so much Mindi!


6 comments

  1. Haha wow sounds familiar! I totally thought I was gonna die young too. Like not make it TO highschool. XD I was so scared of getting cancer or just dying when I was little. Seriously. It was kind of sad. I finally grew out of it though. Thanksfully. :)

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  2. Wow great post. Thanks Mindi, and Happy Birthday, Katie! And Lauren, too. :)

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  3. Love this! And I can relate. I didn't necessarily feel like I'd die young per se, but I never realistically thought about my future while growing up. I knew I wanted to leave home as fast as I could and I knew I wanted to travel. So of course, once I found myself graduating HS & entering college (close to home), it all felt like it was happening so fast-TOO FAST, and it was really tough for me. It still is, to be honest. BUT, I am transferring to an out-of-state school soon, so in the end, I guess I am getting what I want, but it took much more time & hard work than I expected.

    Also, everyone I know parties it up on their birthday, but I'm like, "nooo" when my day comes. haha I'm totally aware this sounds weird, but I'm already (at 19 going on 20-yikes!) one of those people that lies about their age. If that's not sad, I don't know what is. hahaha

    Anyway, Happy Birthday again, Katie! I hope you go buy a lottery ticket soon! :D

    And Mindi-I'm sure glad you were wrong about dying! ;)

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  4. My fear wasn't dying young, but for the longest time I was in fear I would somehow wind up in jail before I turned 25. Don't ask me why because I swear I don't do anything illegal! But yeah it was some strange fear of mine.

    You know, Mindi, your fear would be a good story to read about ;)

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  5. fear is the most powerful feeling. In moments of fear people show who they really are.

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  6. Mindi, you and I could be twins!

    I'd tell younger people to enjoy their youth but to try their hardest to succeed in life! Worrying about things that aren't within your control is a waste of good energy! Instead use that energy on things that are within your control.

    I'm so impressed by your site Katie! It shows so much maturity and to me, that you have a wonderful gift of intelligence, personality and charisma! I think you'll go very far in life!

    I have no regrets from my teen years and I had a successful career until I got sick but even being as sick as I am, I remain ever hopeful. I wait for a cure and feel lucky that at least my disease is being maintained most of the time.

    Happy Belated Birthday to both you and Lauren! I hope you had a Blast!

    Stop by and see me!

    Kristi-The Book Faery

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